Back to me.
Posted by Paurong sa Martes, Marso 20, 2007
People just come and sooner or later go–that is what I learned from what happened between the two of us. She left a year ago to continue her studies on California. Her mom wanted her to be with the rest of her family there and so she had to leave. I can still remember our last moment together. She, together with her aunt and his father, treated me for a dinner on a sumptuous restaurant before going to the airport. The two of us were happy because even on the last seconds of our being together, we have this undeniable smiles of gaiety despite the consequent parting.
After the dinner, the four of us drove to the airport and was on time. After depositing her luggages, the only thing that remained undone was her departure. We waited for about half-an-hour. I was agitated because I knew that hours from that time, I could no longer embrace my best friend everytime she is wearied, I could no longer laugh with her as we watch movies on her bedroom, I could no longer eat with her on the school canteen during lunch breaks, I could no longer phone him every single night before going to sleep… There are so many things that I would miss.
The time had come as if the hands of time revved up. Before waving goodbyes, she took my cold hands and, in a blink of an eye, held me in her arms. She thanked me for everything. She even reiterated her gratitude over and over again as if she was not leaving. I was not expecting that tears would run down from my eyes. I thought I could be brave enough to hide my sadness of her going away. My emotions struggled its extreme truthfulness. I slowly pushed her away from me and reminded her that she was about to leave. And so she did.
A German philosopher once said “every parting gives a foretaste of death; every coming together again a foretaste of the resurrection.” It’s been a year without any communication with her until what happened tonight. She is back. Yes, she is. She is back now that I have almost forgotten her existence. She came back now that I have met another girl whom I thought can replace her here in my heart. I was definitely wrong.
Memories of her came flashing back to me. My head is bursting now yet the thought of her being back makes me more adamant. I want to feel her lips converging on mine again. I wish we can be together again now that she’s back. I still love my best friend.